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2C
00:50
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Here's To The New Year
02:40
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Step one: today I'll find out how to stop being so fucking awkward.
I'll blend in with the crowd and be a nameless face.
There comes a day when you are sick of everything that sets you back;
you start to need what everyone has that you lack.
Hey, don't knock it till you've tried it,
if I do it right they'll buy it, and I won't feel a thing.
Hey, you've got one shot, don't waste it,
when you're so close you can taste it, you must know your place.
You've spent every night on your bedroom floor,
you're scared of the world but you still want more.
A September snowfall is calling, for the first time you're on your own,
and you're not coming home.
Step 2: Today I shed off every nervous habit that I ever had;
nothing to hold me back, it's confidence I lack
Today's the day that I'll drink & smoke and get myself all fucked up
here's to my new life as it all fades to black.
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3. |
Push Away
03:16
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It's not a tough line to sell
That I'm not really doing that well
But when do these lines become excuses?
It's not 2011 anymore
Things are different than they were before
But I just can't find the bright side.
And I start to push away the ones I love
Glaring down away from the empty skies above
And I start to push away the things I need.
This desperation becomes normal for me.
She says she knows I've been pushed around
but after so long on the ground
Why should I hope for any better?
But don't you dare shut down on me,
said from a whisper to a scream
you know in time, you will forget her.
I'm tried of keeping my chin up, when it doesn't make a difference to anyone,
I'm tired of putting my heart on the line to be told I'm not worth your time
I'll always have these shaky hands..
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Self-Fulfilling Prophecy
02:38
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Once again I'm wordless,
falling barely short of worthless
when I got the chance to lay my eyes on you.
There's a million things on my mind, I would die to say aloud,
but I always seem to lose you in the crowd.
The days are getting shorter and the nights are getting colder without you.
I swear that I'd give all of me, cross my heart, I promise I'd be true
But I can't seem to reach you
I never thought I'd see the day
I'd let myself get so carried away,
it sounds so goddamn cliche, but it's true.
But it's snowing in September,
and I barely can remember the last time that these jumbled words worked for me.
And so I keep my mouth shut, once again I will take the easy way out.
Forget the looks I gave you darling, you will surely find somebody new.
I can't seem to reach you.
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5. |
The Newest Low
03:10
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I never used to be this angry
I never used to be this cold, woah
Maybe I'm just lashing out at the world because there's no one I can trust.
And I haven't hit this low, in what seems like forever
It seems like forever
This hope died months ago, and to think I've been better
it feels like forever
And I can't say she didn't hurt me
But I can't say I didn't know, woah
That all of this would come to haunt me when I need her most.
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110
04:20
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The months go by in the blink of an eye
And I can't say I blame you if there is another guy
Seasons change and so did you and I
But I'm scared I won't ever get back the love we held inside
If I was down, if I was down
There was no one like you who could ever pull me off the ground
But you're not around, you're not around
She hasn't been there since the last time I was broken
And all our deepest thoughts remain unspoken
From the day we met our lives were everchanging
Worn out past the point of normal aging,
we planned out our lives together clear and loud
But the world had other plans for us, I'm left all alone now
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7. |
Nothing At All
03:20
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This town has moved on without me, I gotta get the fuck out fast
Turns out it's easiest to stay this vitriolic until the bitter end
Take me back to a year ago, when what we had just felt like a joke
I never guessed I would have wanted out, until you turned on me.
So bit by bit I'll cut you out, and I'll patch up what's left of me
This town's not big enough for the both of us, as far as I can see.
Take me back to a year ago, the lies you told, the engagement I broke.
The biggest plans have all gone up in smoke
And that's fine by me
This life is what I need
I don't need your bullshit, stay out of my life,
Never come back and I swear I'll be fine in the meantime.
I won't feel nothing at all, I won't feel nothing at all.
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8. |
Shut Me Off
03:19
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If every self-defeating lie I've ever told myself were true in your eyes,
I wouldn't be surprised
And to this day and I can't see why you'd throw away all we had,
out of spite, to prove your feelings died
Shut me off
Cut this feeling short
Watch it slowly fade
Just like you shut off on me
You've got a life that everybody wants to lead
You've got the knife, now everybody wants to bleed
Sharpen it twice, dull as your personality
But tell me again, am I taking it too far?
You've gotta lie, it's part of your philosophy
You've gotta hide the things that everyone can see
Left me to die, so much for a comradery
Too little, too late if I'm taking it too far.
Shut me off
Cut this feeling short
Watch it slowly fade
Just like you shut off on me
Shut me off
Fuck me over
And don't look back this time
Cuz you know you shut off on me
There's no more words to waste on you
With nothing left to prove, we've hit an ending that's long overdue
So live your life and I'll live mine, turns out I'm better off
And to this day you're long gone from my mind.
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9. |
Do The Sophomore Slump!
02:15
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Speakers blasting that we hit last call
And through the night we've achieved nothing at all
We might as well just call it quits
One would have to be drunk to put up with this scene's shit
And I just need someone
But how do people find this fun?
We've got some bad intentions, yeah it's true,
But how could I ask this of you?
So hey there person that I've never met -
How about I give you an evening you'll probably forget?
My intentions she can see right through,
though it's not like we've got anything better to do
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10. |
Porch Lights
02:43
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How do I begin to pull away from you?
Why does all of this just feel so wrong?
If there ever was an end to all of this denial
I guess I should have known this all along
Can you read it on my face how you put me in my place
Don't leave the front lights on, I'm not coming back again now.
How could I be anybody else?
You found a way to play upon my desperation
You found a way to make me feel so small.
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11. |
Third Time's The Charm
03:02
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You & I, victims of a place in time
The dead of night, is when we felt the most alive
In certain circumstance, not so content with my contentions
It hit the point where there was no more use for explanation.
If I could stay, I swear I'd never see the light of day,
But I wouldn't have it any other way
Me & you, in the end not so sure what to do
The light of day, so harsh as I'm forced to walk away.
They say it's not a measure of the time we spent, but what went on inside
I'm half awake, and once I'm gone, I'm feeling half-alive.
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Insatiable
03:41
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I've been down this path so many times before
With nothing left to lose, but still so insecure.
Jumping through the hoops of this moralistic life
Trying to not define myself by if there's someone at my side.
Lead me to the door, I'll tuck this heart into my sleeve
But the fake smiles of these pretty girls will make me want to leave
This shift in mood can't be blamed on the changing of the season
I'm terrified to fall in love, but I can't find any other reason
Oh you know I've been hurt so many times before
Enough to give it up for good, but still I'm not so sure.
Hard to find a plan of action when nothing feels alright
Harder yet to justify another lonely night.
So we pass our time away, pretending it's ok, and that I'm not alone. There will come a day when things fall into place, and it will be worth the wait, and I'm not alone.
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Crossroads
02:20
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I've spent a lifetime's worth of thinking, on the things that we could be
But from the inside still I'm screaming, don't waste your time on me
We're at a crossroad, baby now
So I'll try to keep this ship from sinking
but words don't come so easily
Still plagued with insecurities, what could she really see in me?
But why would you like in my wake? For my own sake?
And why would I try to change myself just for you?
So when an end comes to this season, will you make time for me?
You might pretend you never knew me
And I'll pretend this was unique
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14. |
Use Me
04:13
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Use me, come on and use me
I don't want forever, I don't wanna fall in love.
Use me, come on and use me
You don't have to worry, you're not who I'm dreamin of
Once again I'm dying just for you to leave me crying,
what's on your mind?
I don't wanna know
It's nothing that's worth fighting for, I can't take all the stress anymore
I just need you for the night.
5am, we're all intwined, you're asking me what's on my mind,
Oh, you don't wanna know.
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15. |
If Only
02:31
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Throw away all expectations, of course you feel nothing at all
Immune to what conquers me every time, and soon I'll be taking the fall
But who am I to ask for something more?
Just do what you can, if only for the night.
Who knows where it's going, but for now it just feels right.
Head back, eyes forward, mouth zipped tightly shut,
You do what you know is for the best
With so much of me so dormant and repressed,
No wonder my head's such a mess
We're well aware of what could happen next
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Michael Burkinshaw Alberta
Michael Burkinshaw is the lead vocalist and rhythm guitarist for the punk rock band Intense Reality. This account showcases his solo projects, all available for free download. The majority of Michael's solo material is pop punk.
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