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For the first time, my eyes are now open wide
The first time I've felt this stable state of mind
Yeah I don't mind, cause I'm still smiling
For the first time I finally feel in control
The first time the path ahead is an open road
It turns and winds, but I'm still smiling
Right behind my back, they'll try to clip my wings
Cause I've got so much fucking potential
And I just can't wait to see what the future brings
Never one to hold my tongue
So I guess I'll let these words speak for themselves
For the last time, I'm putting my life back on track
The last time I let anyone hold me back
The odds are stacked, but I'm still trying
It's the last time I let anyone get in my way
The last time I don't follow through with the words I say
It's not too late cause I'm still trying
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At Least I Tried (2011)
03:47
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I can't do this anymore
I'm letting my hopes get too high now
When it only leaves me insecure
And desperately needing a way out
The color fades out from the skies
And a darkness consumes all the daylight
No rest for these tired eyes
Up all night asking me "Why am I still trying?"
It always ends up the same
When it all goes up in flames
I lose sight of better days
Why's my heart so blind?
So much that it hurts me every time
And maybe I'm insane now for wanting more
But hey, at least this time I tried
You can't stand me anymore
I wish I could say that I blame you
We both have nothing left to show
Our ending was long overdue
I hate how much I seem to care
There's worse things than dying alone
You find that love is never fair
Though you've always known it
Why am I still trying?
You're never gonna win the game
Since it all went up in flames
I lost sight of better days
Why's my heart so blind?
So much that it hurts me every time
And maybe I'm insane now for wanting more
But hey, at least this time I tried
I'll never ask and you will never tell me
How these looks can be so deceiving
I'll never ask and you will never tell me
Why these words are what I keep believing
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Face Down (2012)
02:18
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Well you're the talk of the town, your prospects spiralling down,
Why can't you turn it around?
Haven't seen your face in a while, your eyes are glued to the floor
I know you're faking that smile
Why don't you go kiss that bottle and see how it goes?
Why don't you just drink your problems away?
Nothing is gonna change
She's found face down
Left out there passed out on the lawn
She'll come around
When the life of the party has come and gone
How will you make it to Monday morning
When your "best life" has been killing you slowly?
These times the pressure's overwhelming
You're blacking out before the light of day
In the story of the life, the writer killed off all of my dreams
And he left me with nothing it seems
Lost nights, a misled generation
That can't picture a life better than this
In the story of the life, the writer killed off all of my dreams
And he left me with nothing it seems
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Hopeless End (2012)
02:15
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As I pass by all the church signs on my drive by I feel depleted
I feel sick for all the deceived and sick for every con man that is preaching it
"Man's way leads to hopeless end, and god's way leads to endless hope"?
What kind of life are you living?
Can't you read between the lines?
People are giving up their dreams to please a non-existent being
Is this a life that's worth having?
I've seen homeless on the streets while your altars are built from gold
They promise eternal salvation is waiting, as long as you do what you're told
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Best Of Me (2012)
03:12
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I'm finding there's never nothing left to do
With the mess I constantly get myself into
Independence and responsibility
Walking back home alone in the rain
Learning how to overcome my inner pain
Seems like decades ago now to me
The days, they never last
Promise we won't lose sight of lives lived yesterday
The future is speeding towards me, though it's still so far away
I'll try to relax and think back to 2010 when my dreams still drove me restlessly
My life I'm afraid is going too fast
But I won't lose the best of me
I'm living my life in overdrive
The pressure keeps on building up inside
Too many plans made for time that I don't have
So when they try to tell you that you've still got your whole life in front of you
Their words have never seemed so empty
And if they're saying that you still have all the time left in the world
They're starting up a countdown....
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The Big Two Zero (2015)
02:03
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I'm dancing for rain to wash it all away
So I can get off work early for at least one day
But the weather's still got a case of ADD
While everyone's pissed we voted for NDP
Oh no, oh no, oh no
Party nights, everyone's doing great
They're looking right past the blank stare on my face
And I don't even wanna call them out on their shit
The next morning no one's even gonna remember it
Oh no, oh no, oh no
I shouldn't be complaining, I've got it good
And if I could enjoy it, oh I would
Your drunken asses won't past classes
Massive student debt left to all the masses
And I can't say I blame you all for calling it off
It's not like I know any better what I want
Oh no, oh no, oh no
Day after day, year after year
I wonder what the fuck I'm even doing here
Write a novel about all the things I don't know
Two decades down still with nothing to show
Oh no, oh no, oh no
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Let's try to hold ourselves to a higher standard here
Cuz we've been causing harm for far too long, for far too many years
There's a point in time when you realize that things have gotta change
It all comes down to courtesy, it's not about the blame
Let's try to set things straight and stop blurring the lines
Cuz I've been so ashamed on my own gender far too many times
Manipulate and intoxicate, take advantage on a Saturday night
For fucks sake, I'm not "bitching out", it's called doing what's right
They say that "boys will be boys"
As if this kind of shit is not our choice
I swear I'll do anything I can
Not to fall into the toxic trap of what you think it takes to be a man
So if you're hearing what I'm saying then I hope it's crystal clear
Cuz I know victims of some fucked up crimes who live their lives in fear
It's time to cut the bullshit and start giving our best
It's time we took responsibility and learned to show respect
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This Time (2010)
05:25
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It seems like we never get a break
And I feel life's getting harder to take
Do you feel the same? Then come with me
It took me weeks to plan, but I put on this party
You want everything to be alright
Well come on in, and I'll show you how I see it
Yeah I know there's times in life that we can't catch a break
Well not tonight, not this time
So come on, relax, there's only half a summer left to go
We'd be stupid to waste it
This time
I've learned there's some things money can't buy
Tonight kick back, don't even question why
And maybe all this energy will last us all a good while
Every time I look upon your face it makes me smile
Now it's much better than "alright"
Well come on in, and I'll show you how I see it
I know these nights are worth every second that they're still here
I'll never let it go, not this time
So come on, it's time for you to take a big step back and see
There's so much more to life
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Well you told me yesterday that we could never be
I instantly blamed myself
There's something wrong with me
But don't pretend I never cared
It's just been a while I since I said so unimpaired
Ahh, it's more than I could take
But I never wanna go away
Ahh, it's more than I could be
But I hope you can see it in me
I swear I really tried with a problematic personality
I guess I'm not the type who learns to accept reality
I'll cover my ears and close my eyes
I'll never accept that these feelings have almost died
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Crazy Days (2010)
03:04
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Don't you believe? I can see it too
It's better when I am far away from you
Still you deceive, and I wonder why can't you just say it to my face
Why do you lie?
Never alone as I see you there
You smile and wave but I know that you don't care
You're still so laid back, it's driving me insane
How could I hope you won't do this to me again
Why do you feel the need to spare my pride?
Nothing is real, all feelings for me died
At this point I wish you'd spit it out
Go on ahead, please destroy all second chances and doubt
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One Last Day (2010)
03:01
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Now I regret everything
Everything I never dared to say to your face
I've always just tried to escape
I lost my nerve, you know it
Every hint you ever gave to me was a waste
I always hesitate
Still my thoughts focus on you
And I haven't got a clue of what to do
My heart won't stop beating when you're beside me
Apart, regret for everything will haunt me
I'm dying to make a move but I never do
So I stay as close as I can and I hope I don't lose you
Well now the summer's here and there's only one last day to say to your face
The things that I've tried to escape
Procrastination takes me
It seems it always comes down to the last day
And then I'm not thinking straight
Please just say something to vindicate me
We both know how long it will be
My heart won't stop beating when you're beside me
Apart, regret for everything won't haunt me
So I gotta make my move
I'm not going to miss my last chance
I don't want it to end like this
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Not one day goes by that I don't think about it
Just yesterday it was all so fine yet
I'm standing there snoring while life keeps passing me by
And all I believed in might just end up being a lie
Do you remember what we had?
We were so close but then you left me here for dead
So I'll forget everything that you said
I'll forget you too
Cause I know that you forgot me
Do you remember what we said?
We were so close but then you left me here for dead
It won't be long before I see you again
I know you'll hide from me until then
I won't have a clue on what to do
I think of my soulmate
I wonder if it's you
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Rooftops (2010)
02:50
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I know myself, I just won't do
I feel I owe this much to you
I need to get myself in shape
Before I go and throw it all away
I'll work my ass off every day
It really wastes my time away
But I know it's what you expect of me
So I will go do as you please
I see you look into his eyes
Now I must be what I despise
Still I know that you would not take me for who I am,
I must be insane
Until I have a heart attack
I'll keep on trying to win you back
After all, just think how good it could be
Just you and me
Up with you, on a summer night
On the rooftop
Enjoying the light display as the sun recedes
Now you're mine, just like I'd always dreamed
And now time has stopped, with your arms around me
And I know that you'll never leave
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Trapped (2011)
00:56
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It's only a thought, it's merely a dream
That's what they say when life unravels by the seams
You just wanna leave, but you have to stay
Tied down by a single thread that won't fray
They all hate you, everyone ignores you
You close your eyes and don't wanna wake up
It's only a thought, it's merely a dream
It's all they have to say when you're drowning in a sea of jagged insults piercing your skin
You're trapped and can't escape
It's only a thought, it's merely a dream
The battle for your freedom was lost
You fought it all until your dying breath
But you're still trapped all alone
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Transformation (2011)
00:43
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I'm losing it, I'm suffering
I'm digging up an empty grave
These feelings and illusions bring me deeper to a darkened state of fear, of loneliness, of eternity
I'm lost, I'm afraid
It's so cold I can see my breath
These days leave me confused
Coming to terms with the sudden death of my mind, of my life, of my heart
I've all but lost control
Now my body carries a burdened soul
In another timeline I was normal, until I came here
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Hear Me Now (2011)
02:15
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I used to be the stereotype of the guy that you'd pass by
Not even worth a passing glance
All I need is another chance
To tell you how you make me feel
When I'm with you it's so unreal
We're together in my dreams
I'm scared that's all we'll ever be
If you could hear me now
I'll try to find my nerve somehow
I used to be so insecure
Never quite exactly sure, it was so sad
I couldn't decide
But now I've made up my mind
It's you that I want by my side
But still I sit here on the side
Waiting for that day to come
I hope that I can get the courage to ask you out some day
I don't know why it is so hard to say these 6 simple words
Will you go out with me
I need you now more than ever
All I need is you
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Larger Than Life (2012)
01:39
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I'm afraid of disappearing in the routines set for every day
I can't remember the last time I felt alive
Broke up with lady luck,
I'm mowing down the four leaf clovers in my path
This has led me to decide
That I'm in need of inspiration
Someone told me
In life there's room for two
There's death in solitude
Loneliness cuts like a knife
Companionship builds something new
Overflowing with potential
Larger than life
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Untitled (2010)
04:25
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Now it seems I'm not the same person that I used to be
So many things left unfinished and I wonder what it all says about me
Now I'm feeling scared that I have changed
I can't remember how I came up with a plan back then
All I know is that I have none now
Woah
It's all coming too soon, where will I end up?
Will I be okay?
I am begging for more time
If I could, I would never waste a single day
Now you see me, now you don't
You'll make it through this, I know I won't
Now you see me, next I'm gone
I should have known this all along
If I could go back in time
I'd teach myself to see the flaws and shortcomings in my vacant personality
Where did all the time go?
Seems not long ago I was a kid
Now I'm filled up with regrets of all the things I never did
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Summer (2009)
02:02
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Moving Away (2009)
03:57
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I hope you'll give me some time to think about this
This kind of choice can change your life
And I really will miss you and your honesty
Do you think it's really worth it?
Don't bore me with your thoughts cuz I don't give a shit
Well I learned they moved away the day I got back
Another friend has gone away
More time left to attack the things that are really supposed to count
Like my future and school
You gotta learn to deal with it
There's nothing else that you can do
Well the more I think about it
The more I realize that we're all the same
You'll never know where dumb luck takes you next
And in time, you realize that life's just not a game
The distance grows here day by day, and it's just so sad
I might be stuck in here forever, boy that'd be bad
What if I end up all alone, in a town so hollow?
Or would I be better off if only I could follow?
Take a look inside
I know it's not your time
Please don't leave me
You have to believe me
Well the more I think about it
The more I realize that we're all the same
What if I can't live without you?
And In time you realize it's never going to be the same
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Michael Burkinshaw Alberta
Michael Burkinshaw is the lead vocalist and rhythm guitarist for the punk rock band Intense Reality. This account showcases his solo projects, all available for free download. The majority of Michael's solo material is pop punk.
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